greatness

Its my hunger that made me mad at the first place and ironically its my hunger that sane people envy most.People including my doctor,nurses,my fellow inmates,some friends,some girlfriends,some strangers have always asked me what is the sourtce of that conviction. After all mad people arent supposed to be confident. more confident than they themselves have ever been. its not justified at all.  its illegal

Its not a new question. its the same question that has been asked again and again to many people throughout history to every person who felt greatness or the illusion of greatness.who have ever tasted that high.alexanders,einsteins,gandhis,dostoevskys and of course countless others who failed.

yes , there are millions of others who failed, like me

but sitting here in my asylum, talking to orthodox doctors and sympathizing nurses i have no hope for myself and there is nothing much i can do to get that hope but what i can do to you, to anyone who ever felt the weight , restlessness or anguish of that greatness, is to tell the secret.

The secret lies in being a child forever, never growing up. being always a kid except for the fact that you are no kid as you already know everything that even adults dont know.

Thats a very very dangerous combination to have .very very dangerous to have for everyone around you and most of all, to yourself.

And thats all greatness is all about